Learning to Pray

Prayer has not played a very big part of my life lately.  I know for some people that would be unfathomable.  I have struggled with my faith and struggled with prayer.  I am starting again.  Praying that is.  Call it part of my life make-over.  I am working at praying better too.  I'm not sure how you do that, I think I will just know when I have improved....

Change is hard

It has been 1 week since I started my "new year".  I have not accomplished as much as I would have liked to in the past week.  Does that surprise me?  Not at all.  Change is hard, I know this.  I know I need to take this one day at a time.  And I will.  I just get impatient.  I have some difficult decisions to make.  I have been dragging my feet about them.  I need to do it though so I can move forward.  It is hard, but I will keep working at it. 

Girl Power

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light not our darkness that frightens us.  We ask ourselves 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous.'  Actually who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small doesn't serve the world.  There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.  We were born to manifest the Glory of God that is within us.  It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear our presence automatically liberates others."  
-Mariann Williamson


I have 2 girls.  Actually, they are young women.  When did this happen?  Blame it on the fact that they are both in college, but I have been thinking a lot lately about how fast time sped by. I raised them alone.  I never used the title 'single parent'.  I never liked using that as an excuse.  It was hard though.  I was always tired, always broke and always stressed.  I wonder if that is why time passed so quickly.  Because I was always so stressed.  Some days I wish I could get a do-over.  I would change the way I did things and just enjoy being with the 2 of them more.  I can't do-over though and that is a good thing.  They are fabulous young women and I couldn't be more proud of them or love them more.    

The first of the year

It is a good place to start.  It is the perfect place to start really.  A true beginning.  I have felt the entire summer should be my new beginning, but it wasn't.  I have so many changes I want to make, but have made none of them.  That isn't to say this summer hasn't been full of change.  It has, just not for the better.  A good deal of it has been frustrating, a good deal of it has been depressing and it has been painful.  It is time to start working on the changes I envision will change my life to the one I imagine.  The life I want as mine.  The life in which I am happy, productive and creative.  Today is a good place to start because today is my birthday, the first day of my 48th year.  It's about time I got started on this.